I know, it sounds selfish. Heal me…then heal you. However, you know how the flight attendant says to put the oxygen mask on yourself before putting it on your kids? Same concept here. I needed begin my healing journey first, before I could help you heal.
This mantra came straight out of my lips and out to the universe, while I was in the fetal position, balling my eyes out in my closet. I looked like the lead singer of a heavy metal band as makeup streamed down my face…I scared the * out of my husband on several occasions. It was most likely day seven of going on no sleep, my body ridden with panic and anxiety, my ears screaming from tinnitus, fear was in full force and my kids needed help with their homework. I was exhausted. I turned to the universe begging for my healing. “If you allow me to heal, I will fulfill my purpose of helping others heal.” I know things could have been worse, but this Midwest girl, who knew little about suffering, went into full freak out mode.
Let’s go back a bit. My life had taken a drastic turn from the good old days growing up in a nice small town in Chicago. I had a life most dreamt about. I went to college, partied my butt off, scored a corporate gig and found my soul mate. We were in the midst of raising our two beautiful girls when…yep, the “C” word….CANCER!
Yep, CANCER. So, ok, I could handle it. I had a good prognosis…no big deal, get this sucker (my thyroid) yanked out and back to my life. Nope, the universe had other plans..it was not going to be that easy. I had to have my awakening first. My perspective about life had to change, and I started realizing that there was more to life than surface or materialistic things. Life was not about what car I was driving or the outfit I was wearing to my next party….Ok, let’s not get crazy…I do like to sport a black dress and stilettos once in a while. However, the new Michelle would rather go to a meditation and strike a yoga pose than hit up the local bar scene.
It was the first time in my life that I thought a lot about spirituality, and my true purpose in life. I became obsessed with holistic healing and nutrition. I studied the mind, body, soul connection. I learned that our bodies have the innate ability to heal, if we would just get out of our own way! I spoke my truth to my family and friends. I became my authentic, REAL self that was tucked away all of those years. Most importantly, my body became balanced and whole again, and I began to heal.
When I was in the midst of my health crisis, I was full of fear and desperate for answers. I didn’t know who to turn to or who to trust. I spent countless hours doing research and stalked the dude at the local health store on many occasions. I was fortunate enough to become aligned with reputable spiritual mentors who continue to guide me along my spiritual journey. I was introduced to Reiki, and subsequently received my Reiki I, II and Master level certifications. I also stumbled upon the Theta Healing technique and acquired my Theta healing practitioner license. Nutrition has always been a passion of mine, and I felt called to study it more in depth, so I attended IIN, the Institute for Integrative Nutrition, where I received my health coaching certificate.
All certifications aside, I am just a girl sharing my story and experiences with the hope that something resonates with you. Ultimately, my goal is for you to experience joy, laughter, peace and healing. Let me know how I can help you! Comment below:)